Afraid going to my best friend's wedding?

Pink Berry, what a lovely name, its a pity that you are trying very hard to spoil it. Think about it, you are taking it out on yourself and no-one else. What would your best friend say if she was still alive? I think it would be on the lines of "Don't be stupid gal just go to the wedding and enjoy yourself". Your friend will always be with you in your mind and you will keep the happy memories of her forever, no-one can take those away from you. I would love to have my gran with me to help me through life, but she ain't here only in my head with fond memories. So get a grip of yourself Pink Berry and make her proud of you, go to the wedding. (Save me a piece of the wedding cake, the corner bit, it has the most marzipan) You take care, I wish you all the luck so Have a Merry Christmas and Happy New Year along with a fab' time at the wedding. Hope you let us know how it went. . . . .